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Friday comes wearing a woman's shoes. Sae does not hear the car. She is at the table with lines one through six spread in two columns — the Vist on the left, the common tongue built back on the right, line five with the stair returned to it, three and a pause and two running down the margin like something her knee remembers. The refusal is written last, in her own hand: *Line seven exists. It is in Vist. I decline to render it. — S.* She has read it eleven times. It does not get lighter. The knock is not the solicitor's. The solicitor emails. This is a knock that expects a door. The woman on the step is dressed the way the Bureau is dressed, which is to say correctly and without weight. "Nemin," she says, before Sae can ask, and the name lands in the hall like a coin set flat on a table. "I route above the desk that holds your provisional. I wanted to receive the correction in person." So it was her. Sae does not say it. She steps back to let her in, because a translator learns which doors cost more to hold shut than to open. Nemin does not look at the hall where Ollan sleeps. She looks at the file. "May I." Sae turns the page toward her — the six clean lines, the corrected five, the note. Nemin reads without moving her mouth, the way a reader reads who has trained herself out of subvocalizing, out of holding a word in the body where it might stay. When she reaches the refusal she stops. "You understand what this is," Nemin says. Not a question. "Not a translation with a gap. A signed statement that a line was carried and withheld. There's no classification for it. It isn't *archive* — you've given us the shape and refused the content. It isn't *do not hold* — you've announced the line is held." She sets the page down. "You've made a thing my office cannot file. Do you know how rare that is." "I know it isn't neutral." "Neutral." Nemin says the word as though tasting a fruit she gave up years ago. "I built a career telling people that forgetting is a kindness. That a shared tongue ends old griefs — that a woman who cannot say the word for her mother's house is spared the house." Her hand, resting on the table, turns once. Three, a pause, and — she stops it. Presses it flat. But Sae has seen. The count runs in Nemin's hand too, buried, involuntary, the way it runs in Ollan's sleep and in Sae's own thumb against the page. The same stair. The same fragment of some lullaby or work-song neither of them was allowed to keep. Sae's body flinches before her mind arrives. It is the root again — the place where Ollan's survived syllables land, the place her own starved tongue used to live. She does not ask *whose life does the poem count.* She does not ask *what year is in your file.* She looks at Nemin's stilled hand and understands, bodily and without a word, that they starved the same language, and that Nemin chose it first, and calls the choice mercy because the alternative is to have lost the house for nothing. "You'll file it," Sae says. "I'll route it." Nemin's voice does not change. "Provisional expires today. The correction is clean. The refusal—" She looks at it once more. "The refusal I'll send up marked *no available classification.* Which means it goes to a desk higher than mine, and stays there, unfiled, as long as no one decides what it is." A pause. "That is the most you'll get from me. An unfiled thing survives longer than an archived one. You knew that when you wrote it." She goes to the door. There she stops, and for a moment the official register thins. "He's counting a life," she says, not turning. "You've built the whole poem to save it and you still haven't asked whose." A silence. "Neither have I asked what's in the file with my date on it. There are two of us in this hall who won't say it, translator." Then the door, and the car, and Friday driving away in a woman's shoes. Sae stands a long time. Down the hall Ollan's hand turns on the sheet. Three, a pause, two. She takes out her page and beside the wrong seventh word she writes one line more: *Nemin's hand keeps the count. She buried the same tongue.* And under it, because she has run out of ways to not: *Whose.* She does not answer it. But she has, at last, written the question down.